I am feeling so lonely and lost right at this moment. Dean is feeling so bad today. He says he hasn't felt this bad since he first came home from Afghanistan. I don't know what's causing this? He has been going downhill for a couple days and I don't really know why. It's times like this that I just feel alone. It hurts me that he's upstairs hurting and exhausted and confused and sorry for having a bad day. I can try to just "go on" with a smile but my heart just aches. Who is supposed to tell me why he never gets any better and just seems to get worse?